Omg i feel shattered..>?

Quit feeling sorry for yourself. Lots of kids have it way worse. Go be nice to someone, do something special for other people. Once you quit thinking about how bad you have it, and how pitiful you are, and do something nice for other people, I GUARANTEE you'll start to feel better. You feel like dying? When I was a kid my dad molested me for most of my childhood. Sometimes I felt like dying too, and my childhood mostly sucked, but hang in there -- it will get better. Just go do something special for someone. Even a smile at a neighbor as you're walking down the street is nice. It doesn't have to be elaborate, little things mean a lot to people.